loving u was my favourite mistake..

sakit!tiap kli jari jemari nie menaip,airmta trn dgn lju..
bsh sume..
i wish it was a bad dream..but aku msh d dunia aku..msh berpjak d bumi yg nyata..aku cubit tgn aku,sakit,yea,x mmpi!!
shafiq let me go...
yes..2 kptsn die..dpn aku,dpn lib..
after he kua kan my pebret novel yg aku bg die pnjm,die ckp,i lpaskn u,2 kptsn i,die trus blah..
airmta aku trus jth,cm air dr empngan 2 pecah n jth berderai2..
nk kjr shafiq,nk bgn x mmpu,lmh..terkaku trus..
aku cri kekuatan utk bgn,tp airmta x blh bnti kua..
aku nangs teresak2 cm shafiq da mti..
sume org tgk aku,kisah plak aku??
seluruh hdp aku gelap,empty sgt2..
tiada lg senyuman shafiq..
tiada lg text dr shafiq..
tiada lg "gadis lib" n "jejaka lib" mlm2..
jejaka lib....
u g mne??npe tggl i sorang2??ingt x kngn2 kitew sume??
ingt x text kitew yg sgt,sgt,sgt sweet sblm kitew 2 tdo??
nnt i nk nyorok dlm almri sape u??i nk nyorok dlm blnket sape??sape nk dodoi i tdo??sape???sape nk bg i ubt law i skt??sape nk bg i kekuatan tmpuh sume cbrn dgaan dlm hdp i??
bdh kan i??i wat u cm pe da..tp u kan EVERYTHNG utk i..
u ajar i cm ne nk syg u,tp u x ajr i cm ne cara nk lupe u rite??
x ley bnti nangs skrg...sakit sgt rse die!!
i nk tido,bler i bgn,i hrp 2 mmpi ngeri i..
i nk hdp dgn u!!
i nk jd BETTER dr husna!!
i nk jga u!!
tp u x pena bg i pluang!! u jht!!u kjm!!
the world is hurting me once again !!
jatuh lg,sakit lg..
i x nk tggu u sbb husna da tggu u!!
i x nk tiru die!!
i nk dapatkan u!! cbrn pling besar!!
ibrt x de duit,tp nk mkn n x nk MENGEMIS..
how??how?how?
mne aku nk cri kekuatan??aku btoi2 down skrg.. :'(